The Pangs of a Blank Mind

It seems as though I've hit the proverbial 'artists block'.  Artist, a term being used lightly as I've titled myself that, block it seems can last some time and its been quite a while since I've been able to come up with any new and exciting designs that I would even consider putting in the store, much less wear.  It seems as if I've taken apart more than I've finished.  Off the subject, I have learned to knit in this time of beadlessness and that has kept my mind busy for a little over 12 hours now! I don't know if  its lack of inspiration, busy with other things, or just plain laziness! Hopefully it will pass, I know it will-it just really puts me in a bad place not having that excitement I had at the beginning.  Its like a relationship, only the fire burnt pretty quickly! I think its just trying to get back into my 'real' job, just finishing softball with Morganne, and trying to get into the groove of the summer has me all but jumping out of my skin, which has been sun burned more than it should have by June 29th, and yes I've had on sunblock but there is nothing sunblock can do being out at the ballfield 3 days in a row for 6 straight games!!! All in all I believe this to shall pass and once it does I will be back on track! But until then, I have a scarf I'm knitting, thanks to my dear friend, and an ebay store to man;)

Sometimes it just gets too hard!!!!!

I find myself wondering,  is this all worth anything...sure I'm having a good time and sure I'm loving being among all these wonderful beads and being able to run my fingers through the shiny objects on a whim....but how do I stop the old habit of making it a 'job'? UGHHH....that word, it absolutely makes me crazy-but I'm drivin to it. Almost too much.  I get something and have to have it so perfect so quickly that I forget to enjoy the process, it happens every time in everything I do!  Is the fact that I know retail too well and know that if you have a customer in your store (in my case ebay) and you don't have what they want on the site, but its instead sitting on your floor, they will leave and go somewhere else, never to be found again in internet space??????...or is it that I just have the need for perfection no matter the cost?   I never thought that I would blog but in my infinite attempt to seek perfection I thought this the perfect avenue to attract buyers and now its turned into a venting area, or a learning tool more or less.  But none the less, I push forward to see what happens and if nothing else I have millions of beads to carry me to my grave, which I am almost sure Fabian would bury me with at this point!!!! Peanut (the kitty in the pic above) has had it and is resting her weary eyes which I should learn to do the same!!!!